Are you there?
I feel lumpy today.
Maybe the way you’ve been eating this past week?
Past two weeks, actually, and yes. I really lost touch with you. Even with the visualizations, I lost touch with you. I’m sorry. I guess I let the visualizations take over, thinking they’d have the same effect as me loving on you. They don’t.
Live and learn, hey?
Yes. Live and learn. I really don’t feel well. My tummy hurts. I feel bloated. But I got tired of all that ‘good’ food! I wanted ‘bad’ food!
It’ll take some time to make changes, don’t be hard on yourself. What’s wonderful is that you are able, after only two weeks, to re-connect with me. That never used to happen…
Yes, I will be happy about that. But, how do I lose the cravings for the not-so-good stuff?
Be mindful. Be mindful of what I tell you I want and need. And then (and this seems a bit funny) ask the food you are about to put in to your mouth. Ask the potato chips. Ask the ice cream…..what are you going to do for my body? And from there, you can make a plain choice. The most important thing is that what you put into your mouth is a conscious choice. Not a mindless act.
But, if I keep messing up, how will I get anywhere?
With time. And practice. And patience. Most of all, with love. I did not get into this state overnight. It was years of mindlessness. It will take time. And persistence. And deciding to never give up, no matter how big the mess-up seems.
But, I want it now!
Everyone wants it now. That’s the society we find ourselves in. But now often means beating up on me to get to where you want. Or starving me. Or pushing me too hard. You don’t have to beat up on me to get to the place you wish to be. I’m not that stubborn. I do want what you want. I’ve always wanted it. You just haven’t been in the same mind, until now. But, the undoing of all that has gone before will take patience. Once I really begin to feel safe, you will see changes. I promise.
Do you feel safe?
Not entirely, no. Safer than I ever have before. But I guess I need some proof that you are really, finally, in this with me. That we’re finally working toward the same goal. The goal of better health. The fact that you’ve been eating poorly again, and have realized it quite quickly, and are here right now….that speaks volumes. This is the kind of behavior I need to see…consistently. Then I will believe.
Hey, body? I’m really, truly sorry for all these years that have passed that I have not been able to acknowledge you.
I know that. I’m just really glad you’ve arrived in the place where you can now see that I am alive, and wishing to have a relationship with you. Thank you so much for the BodyLove that you’ve been doing. It means a whole lot to me.
Thank you so much for everything. I’m glad we’re once again on the same page.
I love you, body. I appreciate you so much.
Thank you, Chere. That means a lot. I love you, as well. Very, very much. And it makes me so happy that we’re working together, now. The slip ups don’t matter….as long as you keep on loving me despite them…as long as you recognize them and come home to me again….
Big hugs, beautiful body.
Hugs right back! 🙂