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Two A.M. and Here I Am


Well, it’s 2:00 am, and I really should be fast asleep.  But here I am, wide awake and telling myself that my bedtime routine this evening was overkill.  At about 8 pm, after returning from a long walk, I decided that my house had to be cleaned.  And my laundry had to be done.  So what might have been an otherwise relaxing Friday evening, was a whirlwind of racing around ensuring that everything sparkled, in between running back and forth to the laundry room.  Floors washed, bathroom cleaned, dishes finished, carpets vacuumed, furniture dusted, laundry washed, dried, folded and put away, all while I listened to an online webinar.  By about 10:30 I stood in the middle of my apartment admiring my work.  And did I go to bed, then? No.

Instead, I had a shower.  At 10:30 at night.  But, I had to!  I was all sweaty and felt..well…yuck!  So, did I go to bed after that?  Couldn’t.  Not with wet hair!

And also, by then I was hungry!  So I grabbed a banana and some peanut butter.  (Yes, on a spoon – don’t judge me!)  And sat down to check emails, and surf the net for awhile.   And before I knew it, I’d put a blanket on the floor and was attempting some brand new yoga moves.  Yup.  At 11:30 pm on a Friday night, I was doing yoga.  Knowing I was going to bed very soon.  Sometimes I’m not the brightest bulb in the box.

Don’t get me wrong.  I was feeling very, very tired by now.  So, around midnight, I finally crawled into bed.  But then I remembered I had to do my half hour visualization, so I grabbed my phone and loaded the video I use…turned out the light and hoped against hope that this visualization would help me off to dreamland…

But, no.  Of course not!  I tossed.  I turned.  I turned.  I tossed. My mind was tired enough, but my body was rarin’ to go.  And now, here I am, writing this at 2:30 a.m.  And wide…..wide awake.  Body….and mind.

In about 8 hours I’m meeting up with a friend to go hang out at Moss St. Market for the morning – a fairly famous market here in Victoria that sells local produce and such.  I’m really looking foward to it, too!  But it would be nice to have some sleep between now and then.

So, would I be correct in saying the self care plan went a bit overboard, today?  I mean, enough is enough, already!  Sometimes, I’m pretty sure I’m crazy.

On a more positive note, though, I stopped by my doctor’s office and weighed myself again…down 3 more pounds.  That’s eighteen pounds off!!!!  I’m pretty stoked…

Though right now, I’d trade being stoked for some good, restful sleep.  Wonder when that’s gonna happen….?  Cause I’m wide awake….um..yeah. I did say WIDE Awake, right?

So….now what I do? (She wonders, looking around the room to see what else needs to be done..)  :/