I stand here
In this strangely unknown place
A twilight zone, of sorts
Learning to be content
With not seeing
I left behind familiarity
Though, troublesome as it was
Was still routine
This place that is between this
This place of discomfort
The In Between
I do not like this place
I’ve been here before
And that voice within me
reminds me once again
to have patience
to have faith
and things will unfold
as they are meant to
And so I stand
and when I can, I take a step or two
when I see a clear path
a way to go forward
But mostly I wait
On the edge of something, though I’m not sure what,
Waiting for something, something new,
I hope everyone is having a lovely Easter weekend. Easter has always been my favorite holiday of the year. It’s THE most important Christian celebration. A celebration of Christ conquering death – that we may have life, and life more abundantly.
I have had the most lovely three days, so far. And I haven’t even done anything very ‘special’.,,whatever that means. For the past few days, I have been experiencing such a lovely calming feeling that all is right in my world. Have you ever felt it, yourself? It’s hard to describe, actually. Yesterday I went for a walk by the ocean with a friend, and as I waited for her to arrive, I leaned against the railing and looked out over the ocean and felt such a feeling of wellness. And the same feeling washed over me the other morning as I woke up to see the sun shining through my window. And as I str-et-ch-ed…like a cat, and rolled over and snuggled down into my blanket and pillow to doze for awhile longer. Peace. And……joy. Joy – full.
I’m sure part of it was the luxurious sunshine we’ve had all weekend. Wow, it’s been pretty amazing here in Victoria. But some of it has been because I’ve taken the time to shower my body with love in all kinds of different ways. With Reiki. With walking. With listening to some uplifting audios on women’s health. With meditation…and with prayer.
I’ve been feeling amazement that something has shifted in me this past month. I’m really beginning to feel what it’s like to be in my body! Just typing that brings tears to my eyes, because you have no idea how far from my body I have been all these years! And it feels really, incredibly wonderful! It’s such a new feeling for me, and I’m languishing in it….
And, I cannot close without saying that this sense of wonder that I have has a lot to do with my personal relationship with God. I don’t doubt this one bit. My life is far from easy. I rarely have enough money. From month to month I’m unsure if I have a job to go to. I’m moving in one month and my son needs to find a place to live, and a job, in that short amount of time. I never quite know what my future is going to look like from one month to the next. To be able to admit all this to you and still be able to say it is well with my soul... that is a testament to my faith and belief that Someone greater watches over me…
Now, I’m not trying in the least to convert anyone. Rather, I’m wanting to say that this Easter weekend I have felt the presence of God in my life in such an amazing way…and I just want to say thank you, God. You are the best.