Struggling Today…

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I’m having a really difficult time with this whole work situation.  I’m obsessing about it, and that’s just not good.  It’s Saturday, for crying out loud, and I should not be even thinking about this!  But, the whole situation (which is much bigger than my friend leaving), is causing me quite a bit of grief.

How do I manage this?  I’m truly not sure if I should stay, or if I should go.  My friend thinks I should ‘wait it out’ a bit longer, to see what happens.  But how?  I mean, I wake up in the middle of the night fretting about it…how’s it going to go, what direction are we going in, who’s gonna lead us through, are we gonna make it……it’s CRAZY stressful.

Trust.  It’s all I can do, is trust that even though everything is nuts right now, God is still in control.  My fretting is only hurting me…no one else.  Can I leave this behind, at least while I’m not at work?

The MOST frustrating and mind-boggling thing is, they have decided to let go the ONE person who could have successfully led us through this time of transition.  Yes, my friend WAS that one person.  THAT is what’s eating me up inside.  So where does that leave us?  Right back at square one……I could tear my own hair out right now….

But, instead, I’m off for a long walk.  I’ll walk it off, and every step I take will represent the anger and frustration I’m feeling inside me right now…

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Hi there! My name is Chere, and I love to write, and initially created this blog to do just that - write! I am first and foremost a mom of 3 amazing young adults, 2 great children - in - law, and 4 grandbabies that are the love of my life! I am also a Reiki Master Practioner, and an office administrator. I live in beautiful Victoria, BC and I'm just a gal who's been around and learned a few things along the way. Thanks for stopping by, and I hope you enjoy! Chere

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  1. I have been in this situation. All you can do at this point is hold on and pray. I have had to make myself practice breathing exercises to get anxiety under control. And when that didn’t work, get Xanax! And remember, that you cannot place all your hopes and dreams on one person, whether it is love or belief in fixing something. Whatever happens will happen. God has a plan. I have been in these anxious moments and have to pray hard. I was there recently and only heard silence from God. Suddenly there was a quiet word telling me that He was working on things and to hold on. It was such a blessing because I was terrified. Things were so chaotic and I felt chaotic. But that eased my soul. Nothing has changed yet, but it made me remember Jeremiah 29:11. It’s sustained me.

    • Thanks so much for this, Amy! (And sorry for the delay in responding, I’ve been ‘out of commission’ for a couple of days). This is really helpful, and IS what I’m trying to do. It’s not easy, that’s for sure. But God IS in control…..right? I have to believe He/She is!

      • It’s so hard when it seems like there is chaos around us and we can do nothing about it. I deal with this so often. As I said, recently it got to the point where I just so frazzled that I was ready to scream. I had been praying and getting nothing. Then God whispered to my heart to hold on and keep doing what I was doing because I was doing things right. That was a comfort. I believe even when we don’t hear God we should continually seek Him and LISTEN and be open for an answer. He doesn’t always speak loudly. Mine was a whisper but it was so peaceful. Hope everything is better!

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